songbird1567

What was I thinking, Trying to say goodbye, Trying to end it all, What was I thinking, I screwed everything up now, And messed up everyone around me Messing up their lives, In my own suffering, Screaming for help in this desperate time, Seeking it out when I know I need it, Fighting the urge to carry out my plan, And I won. Now the thoughts keep coming, Thoughts that got me into this mess And I stay home away from school, society, To try to fight what seems unbeatable, I fear the results of my actions, What people will say, Will they bring me down, Or pull me up from this abyss, Why I write this to a bunch of strangers? Maybe to know I'

One moment there's happiness and joy, Pride is sparkling in their eyes as they examine the work, And then, time comes to a halt, It all goes downhill from there Their minds head elsewhere, to a place of anger and frustration, For a few minutes there's dead silence, The tension weighs heavily in the air at the change of mood, And the next thing you know, all hell breaks loose Yells fill the air, frustration laced in every word, Mainly repeating the same thing, never ending, The once proud child scurries away, knowing exactly where to go, Because that's their safe haven, The pride in their accomplishment never lasting, Because that's just h

The silence stays still, unmoving I wait for the end, not wishing to end it myself Time ticks by, continuously moving on As in the silence, I wait for the day to be gone Little was learned and little was know For the silence carries on And nothing was told Because everyone waited, waiting for the fighter The fighter against the crowd The warrior that's not like the others The one that chooses to run, escape To see the world they could make The silence, now broken, gone forever Broken by a scream, a shout, a cry For now, freedom is finally ours The mixed emotions float heavily in the air Some are feelings of joy, and happiness, and cheer J